“I hated seeing photos of myself in a bikini at the start of the year, but now I am happy to share pictures documenting my progress.”
Making a decision to change:
When I stepped on the scales after Christmas 2016 weighing 70kg (the biggest I’d ever been), I made the decision that something needed to be done.
I’ve never had a great relationship with my body. I spent a decade, spanning my teen years and university education, with an eating disorder and had such a low opinion of my body image that it wasn’t until I was 22 that I could look at myself in a full-length mirror. Fast forward two years after finishing uni and I was fully recovered, with a positive outlook on my life. However, body hang-ups, a common theme with many women and I think increasing numbers of men, still festered. A difficult period while living away from home led to a few too many evenings comfort eating and I convinced myself that my long cardio based workouts would be enough to compensate for the extra calories.
My first training session:
Sadly, the scales don’t lie. While I was happy to be healthy, I sensed a need to reboot my eating and exercise patterns. After a consultation with Jerome, I stepped through the doors of The Performance Project on a chilly January morning in the new year for my first training session. I understood the ethos behind The Performance Project following my introduction – an emphasis on weights-based training alongside nutrition to manage fat-loss and improve physique – however, I was still quite nervous. How could I lose weight while strength training? How will I manage without cardio workouts? Surely, I can’t deadlift? What if my leggings are see-through when I squat? Actually, this last one still makes me nervous…
My doubts, along with my nerves, were soon put to rest. During my first week, I watched a fellow gym member throw herself into a workout and look completely badass; this provided the inspiration I needed and sparked a determination to battle through my self-conscious nature. Over the past six months, I have squatted, hip-thrusted, deadlifted and bench-pressed barbells; I have slammed medicine balls; I have pushed, pulled and ‘prowled’; I have loved and hated the ski-erg in equal measure and I have achieved a long term goal to do a body-weight pull-up. My strength has gone up and my weight has come down. Now at a happy body weight, I am in the position where I can focus on how to stretch my performance in the gym.
Turning preconceptions on their head:
Initially, I was concerned too about tracking my nutrition, which to most people sounds downright boring, but which had also been destructive for me in the past. Here I was proved wrong on both counts; tracking nutrition hasn’t been boring or destructive. The Performance Project and its gym members have turned my preconceptions on their head and made tracking nutrition not about how little I fear I will eat, but about how much I can pack into my day and how creative I can be with food. Recipe, protein powder and protein bar recommendations have made tracking a quaintly nerdy idea in my mind. And yes, I did say protein powder! Not previously part of my diet, I enjoy drinking and cooking with protein powder and the benefits which come with it.
A different kind of gain:
I called this post muscles and more. Indeed, I have dropped some fat and gained some serious muscle since starting at The Performance Project. And I would have been satisfied if it had stopped there- I’m stronger, leaner and 10kg lighter than I was last year and this is all I aimed to achieve when I joined in January. However, along the way, I have gained quite a bit more.
I have become more ambitious with my fitness goals; setting targets, staying on track and achieving goals are all manageable with the right team around you. I have shifted my focus to nutrition tracking which is now a positive principle for me. The Performance Project is scientific in its approach, using researched methods to instigate their programmes. This has resulted in a new passion which I can indulge in as there is plenty of opportunity for those, like me, who wish to learn more about the science behind exercise and nutrition. Furthermore, I know I have a place where I can get complete escapism from the chaos of life, leaving each workout with an endorphin-charged buzz to see me through the day. And the gym member who I watched in my first week smash her workout is now a good friend, still providing as much inspiration as she did a few months ago.
I hated seeing photos of myself in a bikini at the start of the year, but now I am happy to share pictures documenting my progress. To me, this shows not only the progress I have made with my body shape and strength while at The Performance Project, but demonstrates how this hard work, in turn, has led to another progress; building a self-confidence which wasn’t there before. With some new performance goals in place, I look forward to seeing how this progress will develop through the rest of 2017 and into the New Year.
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